No one understands the PAIN of Lupus

It's so hard for others to understand invisible illnesses.

As you read this, please keep in mind that I absolutely LOVE my co-workers and we really are a family!!  We are all so good to each other :)

At work there is a section that we call "cardio."  We all hate that section.  It's the furthest from the well and it's always busy.   That section sucks the life out of me!!  LOL

When I first started in this lounge, I was 27.  I was gung-ho and had all the energy in the world.  I wanted to make all the money that Las Vegas had to offer.

Now, I don't care about the money, I no longer have the energy to zip around and be on a 2-way all night. 

I have an auto-immune disease that is kicking my ass and I plaster a smile on my face because we have a 5 star - 5 diamond policy to provide our customers.  I want to keep my job.   There have been plenty of times that I have left the floor and threw up due to the stress I placed on my stomach from holding in an absurd amount of pain behind a fake smile.

So last night, I had to work cardio when I got in.  THEN I went to break and was thrilled to come back and go into section 2 (the slow section).  When I got back, my co-worker said, "Jen, your going back into cardio."  I was like "Oh hell no girl."  She was like "What?!"  We all thought that was a go because it was  you ...  "Jen please, my foot is killing me."   "Jen, you don't understand the pain I'm in."

Ha, Really?!    How about "I have Lupus!"

I have told them over and over and over that I have Lupus. Last night I told them that I was in such bad pain and they kept asking "why?"  They DONT get it!