9/14/79 - the day I was born

Today I turn 34.  

To begin, I have to say that today I truly am forever grateful to my mother for making the decision to not only give me life BUT to also keep me and raise me the way she did.   I realize that women have choices. Abortion, adoption and so on.   Not saying that my mother was thinking any other way but to keep me. BUT I am just incredibly grateful that she gave me life and that she gave me an outstanding childhood.  I also thank my father for sticking around and working his rear-end of to give me a wonderful life.  My parents were sprung into adults overnight and together, as a team,  they never looked back.  A very selfless move and I will always be grateful.  My parents are my world and my best friends.

As for me today, well this is a very hard day.  I'm single and no children.  I have been blessed to have accomplished so much in my life.  I have been blessed to have repeatedly knocked down hurdles and become a victor rather than a victim numerous times.  And for this, I thank God.

But my birthday is a time of reflection and I am left wondering "why" what seems to be the simplest goal is the most arduous of all.  I want a child and a significant other to grow old with.  Why is that proving to be completely impossible?

Trust me, being single the past 7 months has been truly a remarkable experience.  I've learned and blossomed so much.

In a recent experience with a guy who reached out to me, asking to date me, I stood my ground and saved myself from complete bullshit ALL because of what God taught me through my tumultuous marriage to Rick.

SO, trust me, I have learned my lessons and stood my ground.
So, when is it "my time?"  If I was 20 something, I wouldn't be asking BUT I'm 34.  I'm not a young vibrant 20 something any longer.  I'm a 34 year old grown & experienced woman who feels the ticking of the clock.

On a lighter note, I want to say thank you to my most incredible roommate for being here and in my life.  Jeremy has been a complete blessing.  When I got home from work last night, I had a card, roses, candles and my fav. candy.  LOL...    For the 1st time I was feeling alone and defeated but he reminded me to just take it easy.

Love coming home to my babies!

Looks JUST like our Veda!!!!!!!!