The reality of what has occurred sets in every night that I have to give myself a shot. I've learned to ice the area 1st in an attempt to numb the skin but it doesn't help with the stinging of the medication. The stinging lasts about 10 minutes after injection. Since its all so new to me, I sit here and ask, "Why?"
And if this is the way it has to be, why cant I be lucky enough to finally have a significant other to hold my hand and walk with me through this. This is uncharted territory that keeps uncovering new and difficult diagnoses. I have no family here. I have no boyfriend / husband to lean on. It's just me and honestly, its the most lonely feeling in the world. It overwhelms me with a feeling of helplessness and isolation. There are days I just lay in bed completely unable to move. Not even 11 steps to reach my bathroom sink and brush my teeth. It'd be incredible to be able to shower!!!
My birthday is in one day. All I truly wish for on my 34th birthday, is a gentleman to come into my life. A true gentleman. Someone to walk side by side with...... Someone to hold my hand through all this... A man to hold me and tell me it will all be ok.
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