Sunday, September 15, 2013

At age 34.. only one regret...losing little Miss Paeton..

Personally, I have zero regrets in my life.
I truly am grateful for all the bad and the good that the good lord has given me. The bad educated me & made me strong and the good reminded me of how beautiful life is and always reminded me to keep going.

 At age 34 I only have one regret. Losing Paeton Aleece.

 When I 1st met Mike I was very hesitant because he told me he had a child. I was dead set against dating someone with a child. But the more I got to know him, the more I fell in love with him and him having a child  started to not bother me any longer....

THEN I met Paeton. I'll never forget the 1st time I saw her. This child is so remarkable and so beautiful. I never believed that I could love someone else's child as if she were my own. I fell in love with her so quickly. I truly love her as if she were my own and not having her in my life anymore just crushes my spirit. She made me smile. She made me laugh. Was always teaching me new things. Always so sweet and giving. And the best part was hugging this kid. Her hugs were always filled with love.  And when daddy would reprimand her, I would be the one to go talk to her and try and hug her cute ass while she was hiding under her bed LOL  ..  Cant forget the times she'd fall asleep in bed in between mike and I.  So cute to wake up with her arm around me....

I could have a horrible day BUT then see her get off the bus with that smile and it would erase all my problems.

As for Mike.  Mike knew how to handle me, take care of me and spoil me.  Which of course I did the same in return for him.  We laughed, we joked, we cried, we got pregnant and excited, he asked me to marry him.

His friends called him "Head case."  LOL.  He was such a passionate person about things that he'd flip LOL.  I was the one to bring him down a few levels and calm his ass.  AND if I were the one stressed out, all I had to do was look at him and just the sight of him calmed ALL my worries.  We complemented each other pretty good.

Not a day goes by that I don't I miss Paeton.








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